thanks gab. sadly you made my day. haha

scrap what i said about christmas.

sometimes people just feel stupid. because they do things which they feel are not worth anything. still they do it anyway. but later on you'll realize in life how stupid you are. and maybe you should just put an end to it.

although you can't do it.. you have to anyway.

pointless? sometimes giving everything isn't really the grandest gesture of shit-filled love.

i was blessed this sem with a damn great sked. though we were'nt able to have classes together, my friends and i ended up with the same breaks. which makes me wanna shout a freakin' yehey!

i know some people would want to kill me right now but hey i was like you the past year. anyway, it's almost christmas!!! <3

and i don't know why i'm so giddy about it.

let me just repeat that... and i don't know why i'm so giddy about it.

first day of first sem tomorrow. extra-excited :D 

sometimes at the end of a long day you just get scared. scared of what there is to come tomorrow. you go looking for that one person you know who can make you feel better. you just want to hear a good night and even perhaps an i love you to get you through the lonely fuckin night. sad but sometimes we don't always get what we want.

your phone beeps.

good night says someone unexpected.

it's sad but sometimes we just end up wanting what we don't want.

coz you've got NO other fuckin option.

it's just like getting a one-night stand from a guy you met at a bar. you fuck up. and in the morning you wake up in bed with a guy you barely know realizing you have just indeed fucked everything up.

yeah. i've been watching too much grey's anatomy.

and too much scary things have been happening in real life too.

let me just say free-form poetry is ass. and yes bitches do need hugs too.

i never realized how busy i was. to catch up probably with the typhoon fever which brought fourth looooong days of primitive living a.k.a. no electricity.

p.s. to add to the stormy days ambience, i finished 100 yrs of solitude by candlelight. haha how fucked up that sounded.

now im running around the house in my over-sized oblation shirt, boxer undies and black-rimmed glasses on a saturday night while grooving to my doobie nights cd.

i think had too much caffeine for the day already: java chip frappuccino, caramel macchiato and a black tea. hold on horsey.

it's good to see people after days of cave living. it's good to be with friends you don't get to be with often. (yiheee. arianne, air and kel. special mention you bitches) :D

finally my prof approved my outline. bullcrap. i think that was my 5th revision or something. i had my sister get it from fc this morning. she was hell scared coz UP had no electricity still and if you know UP you'd know fc would be hell scary in the dark.

but enough of the scare-dy cat crap. two more freaking weeks then im done! one actually. and one more hell weekend. all praises to hell. i'm gonna be living it in the next few days. hopefully it'll be hospitable to me at least.